Ugh. I just had a job interview for a Library Officer position at a local college. I sucked! I was so embarrassed, I couldn’t get out of the room fast enough! I normally do well at interviews. Even though I am a pretty timid and nervous person normally, I can usually pull it together at an interview. But apparently not today. I will say it again – I sucked! BIG TIME! I wouldn’t employ me!
I’m not even sure I want this job – I didn’t like the hours (lots of evenings) and the Librarian seemed a bit, well, cranky. Maybe it was just because she was having to sit and listening to a huge dufus (ie me!) and when she had more important things she could be doing. Sigh. I hate leaving a bad impression on anyone, particularly when I’m trying to put my name out there and find a new, better job.
To make matters worse, I put my neck out yesterday so today I look like a weirdo, hunchback creature who can’t turn their head. I couldn’t have been more un-employable if I drooled or passed wind (neither of which I actually did, I will just point out) and I’m pretty sure they metaphorically stamped a big “REJECT” stamp on my forehead before I was half-way through the interview.
So, if I do get offered the job, I will be very surprised. I think my brain sabotaged my efforts because I knew, deep down, I wasn’t suitable for the job and didn’t want it anyway. Maybe that’s it. Maybe I just really do suck…maybe I’ve lost my mojo. Did I ever have Mojo? Maybe I am mojo-less. Maybe working in a sucky job for almost two years has rendered me sans mojo. Dammit.
If you are having a job interview this week, I wish you good luck. May your answers be thought-provoking, intelligent and coherent. May you leave a good impression with the interviewers so that you are the preferred candidate. If all else fails, just remember you CANNOT suck as much as I did today.