Well, today is my 2nd last day at my current job. All of a sudden, I am filled with sentimentality about a workplace I have been miserable in for the last two years. I will miss some of my workmates and hope to keep in touch with them and I will certainly miss the regular “nice” patrons that come in every week, know me by name and always have a smile and a kind word for me. They made the job worth getting up for. I will miss doing the monthly book displays and helping to organise the Christmas office-decorating each December. I won’t miss having to deal with overdue fines or cranky customers. I won’t miss the endless shelving or having to tidy up the kid’s room every five minutes (what’s with parents who don’t get their kids to tidy up after themselves?!) or having to explain to people for the ten-millioneth time that they are responsible for getting their books back on time, not us.
I’m looking forward to having more responsibilities and direction. In my current job I tend to just float around, doing what needs to be done but not really having any set duties, other than the book displays. I’m looking forward to having weekends off and public holidays and more pay and a CHRISTMAS BONUS! I have never had a Christmas bonus in twenty years of working, so that will be nice! Mostly I’m just hoping to get a bit of self-esteem back and feel like I have something to contribute and offer.
I am, of course, going to miss having the days off to craft and op-shop and do all the things you don’t get time for when you are working full time. But at least I will have weekends again, and extra pay means more craft supplies can be bought ha ha! I’m going to have to be more organised (unlikely) and stick to a schedule (yeah right!) in order to make the most of my crafting time.
Am I looking forward to having to get up horribly early every morning? No. Am I looking forward to driving through peak hour traffic twice a day? Absolutely not. But these are things I will have to get used to, like a billion other people do. I’ve done it before, I can do it again (I keep trying to tell myself). I want to be on equal footing with my hubby – he’s “carried” me for too long now and my illness was three years ago – I have to start living and being part of the world again, with all its responsibilities and hard work. I’m a bit worried about having to get up really early – the pain medication I take makes me very drowsy and sleepy and it’s so hard for me to wake up in the mornings…but I guess I will just have to do it and quit complaining! Time to start a new adventure (even if I’m scared to death of failing and making a fool of myself)!
I have been going through my lovely Stampington & Co. magazines over the last couple of days. So many things I want to make! My Mum phoned this morning and said she just got her latest issue of Somerset Studio magazine and she is already starting one of the projects in it so she can have it finished by the time I see her tomorrow 🙂 I look forward to seeing it, whatever it is! Mum has had a bit of a break from crafting over the last few months as she was moving house and getting settled – now she’s making up for lost time. It’s nice to see her back in the swing of things – my Mum without craft or art is not really my Mum! I don’t think I can ever remember her without a paintbrush in her hand or a pile of sewing on her lap. Anyway, she’s fully inspired and ready to roll again now – and I am so lucky and blessed that I get to share her love of all things creative with her. I wish she’d passed on some of her awesome talent to me – I think most of it went to my brother! But I try – she’s a patient teacher even if I’m not a very patient student!
Hope you are all having a lovely day. Or, failing that, a day which will soon be over and , with a bit of luck, be replaced with a much nicer one tomorrow! I’d like to share a couple of quotes with you that I pinched from an issue of Where Women Create – they seemed appropriate for where my life is right now.
“If you’re really listening, if you’re awake to the poignant beauty of the world, your heart breaks regularly.
In fact, your heart is made to break; its purpose is to burst open again and again so that it can hold evermore wonders” – Andrew Harvey
“Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work” – Thomas A. Edison
“It’s not what happens to you, but how you react to it that matters” – Epictetus
“Don’t ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive and then go do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive” – Howard Thurman
Have a great day everyone – be kind to each other and yourselves 🙂