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Blogging Challenge – Day Eight : 5 Current Goals

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Ah goals…you’re supposed to have those, right?  My ex-husband told me that I didn’t have enough ambition for him and that I just “drift through life”.  Which was a bit shit to be honest.  Sure, I don’t want to climb the corporate ladder or live in a mansion or drive a Ferrari, but I do have ambitions.  Having survived a life-threatening illness, I felt for a long time that just being alive and staying that way was ambition enough for anyone, and if I achieved anything else, all well and good.

But he was probably right in a way (damn him!).  I don’t exactly strive for greatness.  I always just wanted to be a good person, rather than a great one.  Money was never a big motivator for me (although, now I have a mortgage looming, I might change that way of thinking!) and I never really cared if I had a high-powered job or was well known in my industry (or any industry!). I just wanted to do ok and get by and not hurt anyone along the way.  I wanted to be content and happy with my lot.  And have people that love me.  That’s pretty much it.  And, for the most part, I have achieved that.

So, in the spirit of this blogging challenge, here are some current goals I have tucked away.  Some of them are bigger than others.  Some are teeny-tiny.  But, goals they are.  So there. Stick that in your pipe and smoke it, doubters!

My Five Current Goals

  1. Reach settlement on my house, move in to it and out of my rental without having a nervous breakdown or killing someone.
  2. Lose some weight.  Again.  Sigh.
  3. Sort my mental issues out.  This year has been hard and I am not ashamed (well, maybe a little ashamed) to admit I have not been coping.  Very dark thoughts have been hovering and I have found myself spiralling quite messily into pits of anxiety-based despair and panic.  No one to blame but myself.  And my brain chemistry.  And I was never very good at chemistry, so I need to sort something else out.  Find ways to be better at life and being human.  I’m sure there’s a manual for it somewhere, right?
  4. Figure out what I want to do and get a new job that reflects that.  ‘Tis hard though…
  5. Learn to be tidy.  I have promised myself I will not be a feral filth wizard in my new house.  Without the threat of rent inspections, it is likely I will fall into very bad habits.  So I am determined not to.  I am going to have a routine, dammit!  I will do the dishes every night and make my bed and put my laundry away and make my house a haven of calm pristine-ness.  And, if that fails, I will just hide all my crap upstairs ha ha.  Why do you think I wanted a two-storey? 🙂

Whatever your goals are, I hope you are achieving them at your own pace and with no pressure from anyone else.  And if YOU want to “drift through life”, I am totally ok with that.  You have my absolute blessing 🙂

Bucket List (or, Things I Will Probably Never Do)

Bucket List (or, Things I Will Probably Never Do)

OK, so I know Bucket Lists are pretty common these days.  Everybody is writing them.  Some people are even following through on their wishes.  Not sure if I can do the same but I do know there are some things I would like to be able to do before I kick the proverbial.  Many of them are very tame, in comparison to other people’s. But that’s ok I guess. Some of them are quite pedestrian.  But you have to start somewhere I suppose, and one person’s dream is another’s reality.  To me, owning a home is a big deal – it seems unattainable, and yet I know people who have bought and sold many houses.  It’s all relative.

Actually, I think my bucket list needs some work.  I think it is supposed to be more spectacular.  I think I’m supposed to write things like “Climb a Mountain” or “Run a Marathon”.  Most of the time I would be happy to just get out of bed on time and not bump in to things a lot.  But, as I said, it’s all relative and personal.

So here goes, in no particular order (and I will no doubt add to this as the months go by and I think of extra stuff I should have included) :

  1. Write a book
  2. Sky Dive
  3. Travel to Iceland
  4. Love myself
  5. Read all the books in one of those “1001 Books You Must Read before You Die” lists, like THIS
  6. Learn to dance
  7. Dye my hair purple
  8. Learn to walk in heels without falling down
  9. Visit Stonehenge
  10. Buy a house
  11. Study something I am passionate about
  12. Find a job I enjoy, not just tolerate
  13. Volunteer at an animal shelter
  14. Stand up for myself when it really counts
  15. Learn to play guitar
  16. Cultivate a viable vegetable garden
  17. Swim with whales/whale sharks/sharks/manatees
  18. Get a tattoo (maybe…I keep changing my mind on this one)
  19. Learn glass blowing
  20. Sleep on the beach for at least one night, under the stars
  21. Go on a luxury cruise
  22. Write a love letter to everyone I know and care about, so they know how I feel about them before it is too late
  23. Perform a random act of kindness on a grand scale
  24. Have my own business – nothing crazy or huge, just something that is my own
  25. Fly in a hot air balloon
  26. Sing with other people (not just by myself, in the car)
  27. Meet Jamie Oliver
  28. Become a morning person (my 6 year old nephew literally leaps out of bed in the morning, beaming and laughing and singing.  EVERY. MORNING.  He is sunshine on a stick.  I want to be like that).
  29. Be medication free
  30. Have dinner on a rooftop.  I’m not going to push my luck by saying a romantic dinner.  Any old dinner will do.
  31. Go on a proper road trip
  32. Learn to meditate
  33. Buy, and use, a hula hoop
  34. Do yoga regularly
  35. Be at peace with myself and my body
  36. Bake my own bread
  37. Stop being an insomniac
  38. Learn to make a “proper” curry, from scratch
  39. Learn to make kimchi
  40. Eat something wonderful and fattening in Paris
  41. Become vegan – or as close to it as I can
  42. Have coffee/tea with a stranger
  43. Go thrifting in New York
  44. Be part of a vintage pin-up photo-shoot
  45. Learn to drive a manual car
  46. Achieve 1000 followers on my blog
  47. Complete an art journal
  48. Learn to sew my own clothes
  49. Stop procrastinating
  50. Teach my craft
  51. Create a Youtube channel (which would require me to achieve points 33 & 49 simultaneously)
  52. Appear in one of my favourite magazines (for a good reason)
  53. Go a whole week without watching TV
  54. Read a book a week
  55. Make and enjoy a stack of pancakes, all by myself
  56. Grow my own herb garden
  57. Take an op-shopping tour of Australia
  58. Get a fringe
  59. Have a market stall
  60. Take a long, cross-country train ride
  61. Send a message in a bottle (haven’t worked out how to do that in an environmentally-friendly way, yet, but I am working on it)
  62. Create a shrine/altar in my home
  63. Be kissed by someone lovely when I’m not expecting it

That will do for today 🙂  How about you?  Do you have a bucket list?  Have you ticked anything off yet or added new things?  Any items you’ve changed your mind about?

Have a great day everyone 🙂