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Winter-Spring Beauty

Despite my ever-neglectful approach to gardening, I am lucky to have a garden full of colour at the  moment.  My succulents and other hardy plants are blooming and sprouting all over the place – I love the little buds and new growth.  It’s always amazing to me that such beautiful things can develop from my sad efforts at green-thumbery.

Everything needs re-potting and moving – you can see in some of the photos how the poor little buggers are reaching desperately for the sun and light – but, as I myself am moving very soon, they will have to wait a bit longer.  Hopefully everything will survive the move and the new surroundings.  I don’t know what kind of sun/light situation I will have at the new place, whether my garden will be in shadow or full sun for most of the day – this remains to be determined (ie I didn’t actually think about it at the time of purchase).

I’ve noticed a few early tulips coming up in my neighbour’s garden – every year they have a beautiful display of bulbs and annuals.  Maybe down the track I will try those too, when I am settled and feel I have properly put down roots of my own.  Not sure how long that will take and whether I will feel right at home straight away.  I really do hope so. I’m going to try.  I need a place to call my own and to be proud of and want to welcome people into.

I hope to grow some vegetables and herbs, as well as purely decorative plants.  It’s so nice to cook with produce you have grown yourself and makes everything taste that little bit better.  I have lots of plans – let’s see how many come to fruition!  You know I will document both my successes and failures 🙂

Enjoy today, wherever you are, and try and see some beauty in it, if you can x

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Fiddle Faffing

fid·dle-faf·fle

(fĭd′l-făf′l)
n. Nonsense.
To fritter away one’s time; dally.

Nothing sums up what I did on the weekend better than the term “fiddle-faffing”. Whilst it is true that I was quite busy over Easter, catching up with friends and family every day, it does not excuse the amount of time-wasting I also did.  And I hate wasting time.  My whole life at the moment is focused on NOT WASTING TIME, due to the fact I feel I am rapidly running out of it.  My new therapist said to me last week “Oh I hear that a lot!  Everyone is so obsessed with time running out, these days.  We make our own time!”  I didn’t tell her I thought she was a crazy person (it’s best not to insult your therapist the first time they meet you – leave that for a few months in).  Time is always running away from us, from the minute we are born, dammit!  Time seems to be escaping from my needy clutches at a rate of knots and I am panicking slightly (ie a lot).
Needless to say, when I am worrying about wasting time, it does not facilitate creativity to any great degree.  In fact, without question, it hinders it.  Like a big, fat, hindery thing.  It sits in your brain, all squat and lumpy, and squishes all the creativity and artistic inspiration out of you.  It is evil.
This weekend gone I tried to create and get my craft on, but I was thwarted at every turn.  What I mean by that is I just made a lot of crap.  Everything I drew or collaged or attempted to paint/colour/glue turned out to be a horrible pile of blah.  This is partly my own fault – I am in such a mess, and instead of tidying up and giving myself a clean slate to work from, I attempted to just work around the mess and add to it.  Not a good idea. I also ate too much bad food.  I’m not supposed to eat chocolate but, being Easter, I was bombarded with the stuff, and decided to just eat it with abandon.  Which is idiotic and not very good for me.  I was basically in a food coma for four days, unable to form complex sentences or think very clearly at all.  Eating badly DOES affect me physically and mentally, slows me right down and makes me feel icky.  Too many carbs has me feeling like I am moving in slow motion.
So, in the end, I just gave up.  I stopped trying to create anything new, and just worked on some little doodles I had lying around that had never been finished.  I used my watercolour paints (ugh – my technique is terrible) to finish off a birdy and some flowers and some dainty I-guess-they’re-dandelion-thingies.  They’re better than nothing, and will have to do for now.  If nothing else, I can add them to plain card blanks and use them for standby cards for myself.  And I least I didn’t completely waste the whole weekend.  It just feels that way 😦   Next weekend I am attending a print-making class so perhaps I will find new inspiration and learn some new skills that will help me get my creative mojo back.
Hope you had a happy Easter and used your time wisely! 🙂
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