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Quiet and Content

Hello everyone!  I have been a little bit absent lately due to *cough, cough* a lurgy that left me feeling feeble and pathetic.  I also hurt my back with all the coughing and so am walking around like a pale, decrepit, phlegmy old thing.  I had time off work – my boss made me – and moped about the house, sleeping and complaining about life.  My Mum has also been unwell (and also has some worrying back problems) and so I’ve been worrying about her as well.  Lots happening – family dramas, work issues, health concerns – and all of it inevitably provokes the anxiety monster that resides in me.  I want to poke it with a stick and make it go away but it laughs in my face and makes its presence known with various aches, pains and physical ailments.  I even got pimples!  I don’t get pimples!!!  I am forty three years old, for crying out loud – I didn’t even have pimples when I was a teenager.

Anyway,  what I am trying to say is that I haven’t had much time (or energy) to do any crafting.  I’ve attempted a few things but mostly just moved stuff around, squinted a lot and sighed heavily at my lack of artistic ability.  My craft room looks worse than normal – I have had to make a little path from the doorway to the desk so I don’t trip and break my neck, falling over the various boxes of papers and supplies.  I could tidy up, yes, but that would take up precious squinting and sighing time.

In the midst of all this creative slumpery, I did manage to complete one little collage-canvas and it is OK.  I will settle for ok at the moment.  I don’t want to throw it out the window or set it on fire, so that’s a good sign.  The little lady on it did give me some stress – I stupidly painted her with gouache paint, not realising you couldn’t put gel medium over that (without it smearing and making an unholy mess) – but I repainted her with the usual acrylics and, in the end, I quite like her and her simplicity.  I tried not to muck about too much.  I am still not very good at faces, but am trying to just DO them and not get bent out of shape if they are not perfect.  Her lips are well wonky.  Don’t look at them.

So, in essence, I tried to zen out and be “quiet and content” with this piece.  The background actually looks like a single piece of text paper, but I actually collaged lots of torn pieces from different pages and then distressed / painted over it.  That was the easy bit that required no swearing or nervous breakdowns (gouache – I am talking to you!).

Hope you are all well right now and having a happy week.  Where is the year going?

Thank you for dropping by 🙂

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Quiet and Content by Violet Annie
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Your Heart Knows the Way (and sometimes that is through housework)

I have to be good today.  I have to clean my house.  I cannot sit in my pyjamas all day, drinking tea and making art.  I can’t.  I have to do laundry and wash the floors and find my bed under all the crap that is on top of it.  I have to dust my shelves and do my dishes.  I have to organise my wardrobes and attempt to make sense of my craft room.

I would rather be crafting, but today I have to be an adult.  Which is boring and unfulfilling and doesn’t spark joy in me.  But it will make me feel like less of a failure and perhaps enable me to get a fresh perspective on things.  It is hard to be creative when your house looks like a tsunami has been through it and you’re embarrassed to have people over to visit.  I don’t want to live that way.

So, no crafting for me this weekend, unless I get the cleaning out of the way early and can manage to fit in a few hours of happy creativity.  I’m going to put the stereo on, get in the right frame of mind and clean.  And tidy.  And sort.  And find my home again.  My brain has been telling me I need to do that, and finally my heart has caught up and is in agreement.  Begrudging agreement.

Here’s a little canvas I did a week or so ago.  It will have to tide me over until I can make another.  I was pretty pleased with it, to be honest.  It came together really quickly and, although I hated it at first, it kinda grew on me.  I’m hoping housework will do the same. It could happen, right?

Thanks for dropping by 🙂

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